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This is not how I wanted to start my trip. It’s not in the past though, like the meme says. It’s happening daily with her so I put it out for a bit but then something new happens and it triggers me getting upset about it.
The über story…
I was in Niagara Falls and got the Uber to go back to the campground. The driver seemed nice enough. We started chatting normal chit chat no different than with other drivers. Where you from? How’s your vacation going? Then he started asking more direct questions. Your traveling alone? Do you drink? Get high? Then as we got closer to the campground he started saying how he wanted to see it. I told him he wasn’t going in it.
When we pulled up the the camper he immediately hopped out of the car. I hadn’t even opened the door. He was walking towards the passenger side cabin door. I opened the door and got out and started walking towards it. Suki was in the front seat. As he got closer her hair stood up on her back. She started off this very loud bark and aggressive stance. Got on the passenger side as was looking at him. He back up and and said oh I didn’t want to get her upset. I just said, I told you that you weren’t going in. He just got in his car and left.
Caught a pretty cool moon shot with Chloe under the black walnut tree. I was just trying to get a picture of her with the mountains in the background and the moon there was a surprise when I saw it.
I started her on omega 3’s and omg!
I was using LLava last night after your posts to see if I could find which herbal supplements would help with her condition. It recommended glucosamine, turmeric, and some others. This supplement I picked up has it in there already! I just saw the Hyaluronic Acid and thought that would help. Went in for a vitamin that might stop Chloe’s excessive shedding and help Suki stop eating grass. But this is the one that stood out so I got it. Progility, advanced joint support with probiotics. The guy at the pet food store said it takes two – three weeks for it start working. Only got it 3 days ago so hopefully I see an improvement.
Also started Chloe on a low does of Gabapentin. I actually got in back in Yuma but she wasn’t acting like she was in pain then. Now she’s reluctant to move so I think she might be.
Im going to get get my bath and start my day. Im feeling a bit anxious about all the stuff I gotta get done today. Still dark so I can waste a couple hours till it gets sunny and warmer out and then I can start the laundry and cleaning up so I can clear out
Have a blessed day!
Im getting hidden comments that show up in my notifications on my pc but not the notifications on my cell phone.
Also, yesterday I had a comment that I made responded to and it said it was hidden by the post author. If it was humorous why hide it? It was just a music video.
Why all the secrets? I asked about one dream and it got ignored. Use your words? Why’s that only applicable on the forums? I’ve told multiple things in my comments repeatedly for a really long time. I don’t understand much in the pictures or videos, I just respond with whatever it reminds me of or the feeling it triggers. The other day felt like the start of conversation, though limited on your part, and then it poofed. That part upsets me, then when I start thinking about how it upsets me, I lose the motivation to discuss the other things that I was planning on telling you.
I did shop phone services for myself awhile back. Quite a few of the campgrounds with lousy cell service were able to Verizon service. However, Verizon’s package was more expensive and had half the hotspot allowance as T-Mobile. So I just chose short stays at the campground rather than losing the gigabytes each month. I used it up frequently last year.
When they advertise “Free wi-fi” it isn’t what I expected.
I’m a bit distracted this morning because I have a laundry list of things to do to get ready to leave tomorrow morning. Luckily the weather is going to be nice today because I have to go through some of the storage bins outside. I’ve been procrastinating about it, and I’ve run out of days to push it off to so it’s go time.
Part of the reason I procrastinate is because a) that’s just what I do and b) I don’t like cleaning and c) I have to haul everything to other places.
I don’t like the set up here because of that. Just to go to the bathroom I have to go outside in 24 degree weather in the middle of the night to go to the house because I don’t have running water. I’m here though because of the dream I had that told me to. There is a campground that’s not too far away that is open all year, unusual for NJ. But, I wouldn’t have the passing interactions or get to see my mom as much.
Didn’t really spend too much time with sis and nephew cause of work/school schedules, and she of course has her own social calendar.
I cannot wait to get to where it’s warm though. That part I am so excited about. I want to layout at a pool, soak in the rays, and veg out. There’s lots of places I want to see to of course but I’m just dreaming about having a suntan and being warm again currently.
Thinking a maximum of 6 weeks stay here next year. That’s plenty of time and I do need to do better with making experiences with my family members while I’m here. Xmas gift cards are so lame. I thought about it, but for whatever reason I never got the urge to get things scheduled.
Guys say they don’t like to talk, but I have yet to see that actually be the case. All the relationships I’ve been in they have dominated the conversations every single time. I didn’t mind it, I enjoyed hearing about their day. The problem was it wasn’t a two way street.
I know you like to talk, I’ve heard you dominate multiple podcasts and spaces meetings. It’s still just not with me. Why?
I’ve been pretty upset about Chloe all night long. She’s been reluctant to go outside the last couple days. Last night she was like that too. Usually when we get to a new place they both are really excited to go out and see the new surroundings. Chloe didn’t want to. She has to do a little jump onto the ramp I got to help her get out of the RV. She’s fallen and gotten hurt a few times, but still did it till the other day.
I did think that maybe once we got on the road again she’s get excited. I keep thinking there’s something I should be doing to fix her. Like I could heal her somehow but I can’t get an answer. Im not sure if my emotions are in the way or not.
I was thinking of finding swimming holes for her once we got to warm weather but then I keep thinking about the gators in Florida.
Then at times I think it’s my fault somehow. I keep thinking about the familiar connections, canary in the coal mine type of thing. She had a tumor growing which stopped once I moved, or seemed to anyway. My sister’s cat has a heart issue, last year the other cat had the tail issue, both around Thanksgiving. Legs issue? I didn’t go on the farm tour yesterday cause it was raining, and everything was wet and cold, and she got done late with her clients so it was almost 4 when she reached out, half hour of daylight.
Then I remind myself of how this started at the cabin. She stopped walking around the property with me, but I thought that was cause of Suki. That she just needed slower mommy and me time. Then I go back a little further and remember she lost control of her bladder one day. She was so upset about it, she kept trying to run away from the pee, cause she knew she wasn’t supposed to in the house. His mom was there, she kept saying to beat her for it. I told her no, she’s sick. She would never do that intentionally.
Then I remember the night I was laying with Chloe on the bed. She was just looking me in the eyes and I was petting her. And I just started crying. I told her ok, I ll get another dog, I just felt like I wouldn’t have her much longer. I wanted her to have a playmate and happy times with Suki. Did I give her that or did I cause the sad times?
This is the picture on my iPhone right now. It’s Elsie, our family friend, and my sister. Elise has had multiple strokes so far, struggles with walking. Her and her partner are moving to Florida and she’s been really depressed about it. I suggested we invite her to my bday party. My mom and my sister’s bf both were reluctant because if she has a bit of wine they have to carry her to the car. My sister said that didn’t matter and invited her anyway. She would have been sitting home alone otherwise. I think she had a nice time.
Suki and Chloe have had a lot of playtime together. Think that’s extended her life?
Then I start thinking about my first dog, Pebbles. Her kidneys failed and I had to put her to sleep. On my birthday. That sucked.
Then I worry about having to do that with Chloe. Then I think about how my moms dog passed away at home just laying there and how beautiful that was. A natural passing at home where she was happy. Then I cry thinking about if that happened with Chloe I’m not strong enough to pick her up off the floor.
Then I think about how if this was going to be a more magical trip we’d find a cure so she could enjoy it too. When I get to sugarloaf they have a dock there that I can throw the ball and let her swim in the ocean. She can’t do the long walks but she loved that.
That’s a month away though.
Mixed emotions today. I was excited but mom was pretty sad. She doesn’t think she will see me again because of her health deteriorating. I asked her to stop smoking again for my birthday present.
I was excited to be on my way though. I’ll be happier when Im in warmer weather. Tomorrow should be fun, have quite a few places planned.
I’m worried about Chloe. She has degenerative myelopathy. Both hinds legs are giving her issues, and she doesn’t want to climb in and out of the RV. She’s a bit too heavy for me to carry too. I’ve been looking for swim therapy places I could possibly take her in the places Im going to. Bit tuff without a car. I need to help her rebuild the muscles in her hind legs. Also see some herbal remedies that they claim will assist. I gotta do more research and see about them.
So does everyone have these time capsules set aside? That FB memory was pretty cool. I’ve had others happen like that but not that far back.
Looked up yours
I went and got my hair done this morning. Got most of the blonde back still a bit of orange throughout. Remembered on the way there though that there was one post I made on your timeline with an orange mermaid. The next post of yours was that it had to many calories it needed to be baked and not deep fried. I was really excited at the time cause I was finally allowed to post to you again so I worked on it. A few weeks later I posted the same mermaid on my timeline and it got lots of likes so I figured I was doing better with the emotional implants.
I’ve had plenty of times where I post a picture just cause I like it, it syncs with other stuff I saw, or I’m thinking of something then go back later and read the stream and realize it’s a story. Sometimes I have an Oh Shit moment where I hope nobody else takes it the wrong way and other times I get reminded of things.
Like the dream I had that told me I had to paint the picture of riding the pink tunnel with you.
I’m having an oh shit moment but going to post it anyway.
I actually did a whole story one day last year for you to read. Don’t remember it really except that I put the picture in post and then words for the previous picture in the next and built up from there. Didn’t know if you were reading it or not, or if it worked or not, so I didn’t try again, that Im aware of anyway.
I did get a kick out of that chakra comment last night. I have thought of sending different feelings through the pictures and airwaves. Tried experimenting too for a bit but since I had no feedback no idea if it got sent and felt or not.
Now that article alone is too broad to garner much, if any, publicity via search engines. There a billion “fishtown” mentions out there. But if she focuses on the individual businesses within it, she can easily do a write up about them. just like the google reviews for locations.
I met with my real estate friend yesterday for lunch. One of the things we talked about was building up my website for the Philadelphia area. I said I could do that but me spending 2 months building out Philadelphia still won’t compete with the big wigs. We have to go through alternate paths that can get people’s attention and at the same time bring in traffic that could refer.
One of the ways to do that was to do write ups of individual businesses. She lives in Fishtown now, the neighborhood I grew up in, till I was 12 and moved to NJ. I asked her to go to individual cafes, stores, bars, galleries, take pictures meet the owners and do a review of her day. The positive things about the place. None of the real estate sites will be targeting Joe Shmoe’s shoe store by name, but we can. A review of how nice it is, or how great their owners are, or how fabulous their shoes are, whatever she finds that’s a positive thing to talk about. The searcher, not necessarily looking for a home themselves, could see her name and refer. The owner receiving the positive online review, would be more inclined to refer her to their clients, like a trickle down effect. Some might even click onto the search and use the site to find a home.
I cheated and used chatgpt for the first article
https://www.roxanneardary.com/blog/fishtown-pa-dynamic-community-vibes/
That’s the one thing I do love about the video pops. Lots of times when I start feeling sad something that makes me laugh pops.
The other day I was listening to a video of the girl who says she channels aliens. She was telling a story of going out to a park and seeing 3 guys roaming and said they looked on the spectrum. She had a conversation with them and then decided to tell them that the reason why they didn’t fit in was they were actually aliens. There was a lot more to the story but the gist of it was all 3 got triggered and wanted to get away from her. They started out with a great conversation between them all, then it got turned into a death sentence.
I had my bit with aliens, first it was the wrong thought then it turned into my mom had sex with an alien story. In my mind, that’s the missing link.
I was thinking in the tub about evolution. Since we, as in all creatures, are all interconnected, wouldn’t it be the ones that had the strongest ability to connect with their higher selves that allowed the DNA changes to take place?
Does that also mean we can send and receive dreams from animals and vice versa? I dreamed about being an animal, playing as animals, only sex happened was with the bottlenosed dolphin, and that was very short lived.
I was also thinking about birds and how they evolved. If everything started as a fish, why would it evolve into a dinosaur then a bird?
The oldest known fossil of a flying or gliding fish are those of the extinct family Thoracopteridae, dating back to the Middle Triassic, <b>235–242 million years ago</b>.
https://www.bbcearth.com/news/the-winged-giant-that-was-bigger-than-t-rex#
Wouldn’t / couldn’t they all just take their own paths and adopt what works and what doesn’t for other species? The higher consciousness, not connected to time would know that or it wouldn’t? It would take separate paths if it did. Why even make dinosaurs to begin with if we were going to just wipe em out? Something for the future humans to talk about? Discover / explore? Giant trees would need giant herbivores to eat them, also would make a whole heck of a lot of fertilizer.
