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We were never really close, she’s best friends with my real estate friend. But she actually pretty similar to me, she’s willing to explore all kinds of topics. Yesterday we did briefly talk about Jung and collective unconscious vs personal. I just shared it on FB and tagged her. Maybe it’ll help her think of it differently.
My friends just moved from NJ to FL. Used to live right by my sister. They just got back from a trip home and they couldn’t wait to leave, everything brown and cold. Their new house is beautiful but expensive. Its a 3 bed ranch I’d guess around 2000 sq ft, for 900k, not much of yard to speak of, but the hot tub and small pool is kind of awesome. 2 parents working full time.
Got into a whole conversation about feminism and how she thinks it destroyed family life. Also, now the woman typically is working a full time job and still has to take care of the kids, do the homework, cooking, shopping.. guys didn’t change a thing.
On the religious front, both ex Catholics. Believe in a higher power, just not organized religion.
Which also reminds me of a dm I got from a cousin yesterday. She spends a lot of time being very polarized over politics, like I used to be. She was complaining they were spreading fear for votes so I sent this which happened to pop on twitter right before she msg’d me.
My friends yesterday was talking about believing in a higher power, just not organized religions because they were corrupt. I told them Jesus didn’t either, that’s why he turned over all the tables. Think pi had something to do with it?
Decided on bacon and eggs for breakfast. Didn’t eat it until 12 though. I’ve had lots of intermittent fasting pops lately, to keep a narrow window for food intake. That didn’t really happen at my sisters’, they wanted to eat much later than I did. But, it’s also a problem when you wake up at 2 am. Cause you get hungry hungry by like 8 or 9 and then not eating dinner till 6- 7 is a long spread. Id be going right to bed after too cause I was beat.
Back when I was doing keto that was the great things about having fats & proteins for breakfast, held you over pretty long. Just realized now I am hungry again, that’s all I ate today. Might just eat a piece of cheese and call it a day.
Oh, and I didn’t get my third round of laps in. Got there and saw people in the hot tub so I joined them. They were from Windsor, Canada. Nice family. Lots of real estate issues up there. Cheapest house they can buy is 500k now and they don’t make anywhere near enough to buy it. Was a young couple and their dad talking about how big of a mess their economy is. Said people are literally converting their parent’s basements now into apartments cause they can’t afford to get their own place.
That post made me smile and had me humming “In the mood”.
You know what happens a lot with the pictures? The one that pops matches the next one I post at, but I didn’t see it before I posted my original pic.
Pompeii is one of the places we visited on my school trip. Don’t remember much from there, but I do remember a jewelry thief .
Interestingly enough, the family in the hot tub tonight really liked Desantis. One of the big reasons was he allowed defense of self and property. The dad was talking about the hurricane and the looting that started. DeSantis said, “you loot we shoot”. I don’t remember anything about that time frame and if it happened or not, they said it did, along with people getting mauled by the alligators that were roaming the neighborhoods.
Back when this first started I was waking up in the middle of the night, don’t remember what I was doing, I was still at the cabin at the time. But I’d work on things, then when it got daylight do my walks. I was always thinking about what time it was on the west coast and how you wouldn’t be on till 6am your time, which was 9am my time. And sure enough that’s around when I’d see your first post.
The summer time was weird, cause at that point I was only getting one a day most days. Unless I got really upset about things then multiple posts would show up to help me through it. Don’t recall timestamps on those. I was waking up in the middle of the night most nights, following the moon.
Then when I was traveling through different time zones, I was finally sleeping till the morning, which I was really happy about.
Then when I was at my sisters, the time changed happened, and I started falling asleep not long after it got dark. So waking up at 2 am I still got at least 6-7 hours sleep.
Lately I’m trying to go to sleep later 8 – 9 again, even though it’s dark out. So waking up at 1 -2 in the morning makes me very cranky. I try to go to bed again sometimes and can’t fall back to sleep.
I have a hard time taking naps too. I just start dreaming and something jolts me awake, so I never get rest. Here and there I feel a little rested, but most times Im still dragging. It’s pretty rare that I can actually get a solid nap in. That part sucks when I’m driving too. Cause I pull over to try to nap and just go in and out a bit, then give up and get up. Though it’s usually enough that my eyes aren’t heavy during the next bit of driving.
So if it’s you waking me up doing some sort of experiment, please stop. Ill always be here and will respond when I get enough sleep. If it’s me, stop being a dick to get me to post about stuff, can do that during normal daylight hours. And if it’s some random on the inter webs kindly fuck off, there’s plenty of other people that enjoy staying up all night. I need my beauty sleep, I have lots of stuff I want to do during the day. Plus, my dreams only involved two (Brian and I), three if you account the mini me, or 4 if you count the mini Brian. Anybody else is uninvited! View from afar and find your match.
Is there a way to make an intruder alert? Why’s my dog keep panting around the same time every night the past couple of nights? Not even hot in my RV, had the air set to 66. Might be cause of the close quarters with three in there. Im going to pull out the fan and blow it on Chloe tonight and see if it keeps her cool. Suki sleeps on the floor, she’s the door guard.
How do I figure out what’s actually transpiring here?
Is there an open source got model that can do my taxes for me? I just want to give it my documents and answer a few questions and have them completed. I don’t want to have to spend a bunch of money to tell the government I didn’t make anything.
Woke up last night around 1:30. Chloe was panting and shaking the bed. Got up, asked Siri what time it was, and heard it, and went back to bed. Did think about getting on briefly, but wasn’t worth losing sleep over. It’s not fun for me to wake up at that time and then spend the entire night posting pictures and only talking to myself. Nothing to look forward to. Did see a few posts made at that time when I got on. Answered them then.
One of the rifts in my family occurred because of some of the uncles making comments to Jess about her clothing choices or getting a little too huggy on her. One uncle is banned completely from the house by my sister for grabbing Jess and pulling her onto him, and the other is walking a very thin line with his remarks. Jess won’t go to the house at all when they were around. The uncle that makes the comments, tells her she dresses to provocatively and she needed to make better choices. Here’s the thing about that though, his daughter wore the exact same type of swim suits and clothing pretty much her entire life from the time she was a teenager.
I told Camille, it’s not about what’s she’s wearing, it’s about what he’s thinking when she’s wearing it. He’s then trying to shame her, for his thoughts. I told Jess the same thing, and she just said that’s even worse cause he’s her uncle. I didn’t know what to say to that to help her heal it and get past it.
The gropey uncle was that way when we were kids or he’d try to be. We’d run away and hide in the bushes. Always getting drunk and turning into a perv & making perv’y comments, never actually touched us though we were in middle school then. Started right around when we started getting boobs. He tries to make his comments as jokes towards us as adults. My go to is usually a sarcastic comment that embarrasses him. That would stop him in his tracks and put him on the defensive. I told Jess and Camille to do that, but she didn’t want to sass her uncles. Camille wasn’t comfortable with that either. She just banned them from coming around.
That, of course, puts tension on my mom and my sister’s relationship. Mom says she’s ruining the family cause she wants to see her brothers. She won’t address it though, takes a “boys will be boys” type of attitude. Camille went full momma bear and doesn’t want him to step foot in the house ever again and doesn’t understand why mom won’t stick up for her daughter. Of course, she also has Jess throwing a fit that she won’t come to anything if they are there. It’s a mess.
Alright, I went ahead and ordered my cheeky bikini. It will be here Monday. Not sure if it will fit right yet but gonna try anyway. Not very many people at the pool so far, granted it’s be cloudy and today rainy. But, not going to worry about it or try not to. I’d like a nice full body tan, or as close to it as I can get.
That reminds me, the comment made earlier about not getting a decent nights sleep till Christmas… Have you been hearing me bitching about waking up too early?
So far the day has been off an on drizzle, little bit of steady rain this afternoon but that passed quickly. Got to go swimming twice. Hoping to head back out for another 10 laps and more hot tub time here in a few.
Which reminded me of my last trip. I didn’t get any major rain storms from the time I left Ashville, NC till I got back to NJ, then it rained a lot. I managed to miss em all! That was pretty cool cause in Asheville when I had to walk the dogs in the mud then try to clean them off before the RV, that was tuff. They still managed to get a red tint on the carpet that I couldn’t get out.
Met a nice couple at the hot tub today too. They were from NJ. She was a real estate administrative assistant. He does computer programming of some sort. They didn’t buy a house, they bought a class A toy hauler, and converted the garage into his office. Now they can travel all over and still work the same time.
I had a few prompts previously with the V bathing suit of course. And yesterday, Jess was telling me how she did a manifestation board, and just realized she did everything she set out to do. Take more pictures, eat better, journal more. She had a few others like be more fashionable. That one isn’t for me, at least not where Im at. Not in the space, nor have the space, for that kind of thing. Need the wash and wear type of garb, just been buying T-shirts in brighter colors. Which did make me feel good.
When I was younger though, and in the dance world, or going clubbing, I did spend a lot on all kinds of cute clothes. Also had a lot to do with how I felt at the time I think. Sometimes when I find cute things at the store I don’t buy them cause I feel fat in them and don’t think they fit me right. When I felt like I was looking good, which usually was at a lower weight, then I bought all kinds of cute things.
My real estate friend has stayed thin the entire time I’ve known her and I’ve yo-yo’d repeatedly. She would say. “Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels”. I dunno about that, I’ve had some damn good tasting dishes, that were worth the extra calories over my time. But I think that’s another thing, I lost that weight last summer just eating what I wanted just in moderation. I know skinny for sure doesn’t equate to happy. I know a bunch of unhappy thin people.
Back before we met, he was the first person I was able to ask questions about awakening and actually have conversations with about it. I started following him off a response he made to a post about Q. He was at first dismissive of me, but over time and my continuous questions, we ended up being friends. In fact, in the video yesterday was laughing saying how he never would have guessed he’d be sitting and hanging out years later with someone he met off of Facebook. I laughed and said, you’re forgetting I showed up at your doorstep. He got a good chuckle out of that.
I had a few dreams about him too. One I mentioned about playing volleyball with you and him.
The first one we were dancing, but then I changed partners and danced with the golden angel with the sword.
Another dream before that one we were at a campfire. We were lying together, next to a campfire. I was naked, he was asleep. I was just staring at the fire.
Funny thing about that dream, yesterday we actually got into a conversation about people being ashamed of being naked. He’s does construction work. He took a job for a lady that wanted an outdoor shower built, but she’s been complaining that she doesn’t want any cracks that people could see through, and how he couldn’t understand why people were so upset about being seen naked. I told him it’s all about how you were raised. I remembered a time when my grandfather spanked me for running through the house naked, might have been around 8. It was actually my sister that did it, but he thought it was me and I got the spanking. I told him shame was taught.
I also told him the stories of how it took me multiple steps to be able to go to a nudist resort. How it started where I was at the spring where people got naked and I sat on the side dressed, then decided to try a campground where you could only go into the hot spring naked, then scheduled a campground where you had to be nude all the time. Takes steps for people to get over that.
During the interview I also compared the campfire to the hot tub, sent him the post to read. We’ve had conversations about his property and I had suggested to him that he use his architectural skills to design something beautiful with it. He has quite a few acres. At the time the township was sending him notices that his property was overgrown and he had to cut it down to be presentable. Sent him pictures too. He told me yesterday he’s been doing all kinds of gardening designing and planted lots of fruit trees.
I also had another dream where we were talking by a campfire and his face turned into an Indian elder and kept switching back and forth between his real face and the Indian face.
I told him about that one when it happened. I don’t remember the conversation but the next day he came back questioning if my intentions were pure. I got very upset by that. Also got embarrassed because I already had the dancing dream then the naked by the fire dream. Then I got angry and defensive. Didn’t speak with him for awhile after that. At the start of this process, I remember posts popping up that made me feel that way again. We hadn’t met when they happened, but for some reason I felt like I had cheated on you, even though nothing sexual had happened between us in those dreams. Then you posted about the hieroglyphs still being on the wall and that helped me get past it. That’s when I started talking to him again.
Im remembering now a scene where a bulldozer came through and buried the camp and fire, and that transitioned into the 3 of us playing volleyball in the water.
I also had a volleyball dream where my other friend from my gaming guild, Maho and I, were playing volleyball in the water. That happened earlier this year, and I thought maybe they’d meet or chat or that I’d be hanging out with them both this trip. But, my other friend decided he didn’t want to drive down cause it was an hour away. Was funny cause he was a Knight of the Undead Lords, and I got Maho knighted yesterday at the Medieval Times event.
Almost every area had their own show. Ran every two hours for about 15 -20 minutes. Weren’t many kids there. This show was on as I walked into the Morocco area. Way back down an alley was a little shop you could meet Jasmine.
I know my posts about my adventure yesterday sound negative. But, I really did learn a lot. And I have high hopes for what that place could be.
I left there thinking, “Epcot Epcot why have you forsaken me.”
I wasn’t the only one either. The other kids I followed behind for a bit were saying the same things I was thinking. They were in high school.
Im think of Bill and Ted’s excellent adventure now.
A lot of families save up for their one vacation a year. It could be a natural progression the right ways if it was a team effort.
I think they came out beautiful. Those modeling agencies are quite scammy though. I did warn her about that before they went to NY. They charged them 4k for the portfolio pictures. She’s got quite a few on her Insta account that are gorgeous that just her and her friend took.
She’s applying to agencies, the first one that responded to her said they want better pictures, for another. 1.5k. She’s not going to go for it. Maybe I’ll just tell her to send some of those as her new shoot from a private photographer she worked with here. 😀
I have a new goal and I have Jessica to thank for that. Imma follow her behind, literally :D.
Most the countries had 360 degree sight and sound movies that played. The one I decided was the last country I toured, Canada. Had a very pretty set up. Thought for sure I was going to learn something or see something spectacular in their visual display. Maybe even learn something about it for when I head there.
The lobby was the darkest and dingiest waiting room I’ve ever seen. The movie was some drone footage of different cities, and of some of their forests.
Cool thing did happen though. When I got back I went to the hot tub. The guy I met was from Canada! He and his wife come to Florida for 5 months to escape the cold. He loves to bike ride here because it’s flat land. He said it’s hard for him up there because of the all the hills, here he can cruise around for a couple hours. We did talk about taking an exercise break and how it’s a little ruff getting back into it at first. My butt, legs and feet were pretty sore from all the walking. 3 months of nothing sure changes things. So I was pretty happy to have a hot tub to get into when I got back.
This is Jasmine’s den, where you get to meet the princess. Way down the alley way hidden in the back. I was standing in the corner of the room when taking this picture. The fairytale got stuffed in someone’s back pocket, along with the profits.
I’d love to be able to feel confident wearing a bath suit like this. I really dislike talking about weight loss & body goals. Always seemed like I could never keep with it and reach it and then didn’t want to go have to explain the why’s to people. If I understood it, and didn’t self sabotage along the way, I could do better. But that’s just where it gets confusing. Last year when I dropped 40’ish lbs. I never thought about my weight. I mean I did, but I didn’t in the standardard measurable way. I didn’t have a scale, only bought new clothes when the ones I had didn’t fit or were looking super baggy. Some of which Im back to wearing again.
Last time I wore a bikini was when I was a teenager, till this past year. I won’t put it on now, won’t fit cause my belly is bigger. But, I want to get back in it and also would like my new bikini to be like this one.
The guardians of the galaxy was the one ride I really wanted to go on back when I first decided to go to Epcot. I was remembering all those funny clips from the movie I had posted. At the end of my tour of the world though, I decided they were the last people I’d want as guardians of any galaxy. Wait time 180 minutes.
