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Been having lots of elemental forays today. The chair is pretty colorful. The setting is different.
Would you believe me if I told you that you were already in on the primer?
What do you think of this bed? I was surprised with the pop, much different from my norm. I mean, for furniture. The elements appear in a lot of pictures that I post.
I thoroughly enjoy my alone time, and I get lots of it. Can entertain myself very well. Doesn’t change the need for some human interaction though. So I’d say this is half truth.
Back to weather events
One of which happened end of last summer. My mom was having chest pains and we rushed her to the hospital in the middle of the night. The heart enzymes were elevated briefly and then lowered, so they couldn’t find anything specific as to the cause.
I decided to do an active imagination session to find out if my mom was going to be ok.
What I saw was first a birthday cake with 1 candle in it. Then a scene of a big storm and ruff waters. I could see a dock with a row boat tied to it.
At the time, it was her 1 year anniversary (not sure if that’s the word I should be using, I usually use it for a celebration) for her cancer diagnosis. I did feel relieved, that it was probably a stress / trauma response.
The interesting thing about that specific dream though was that a month later on her actual birthday a hurricane came through. I was also in a bit of emotional turmoil at the time.
I said at the beginning of this, he was the best man for the job 🙂 He had studied a broad spectrum of topics, which I needed. In fact, for awhile I limited my interactions with others that didn’t keep me on track to where I wanted to go. All unnecessary triggers minimized or removed until the right place and right time.
This is a funny one.
I did have a couple of instances of paranoia. Usually triggered by a hypnotism post Brian made. Was easily dismissed though. Just sat back and worked through a few questions:
Am I happier? Yes
Is my life more satisfying? Yes
Am I laughing and smiling more? YesI may have thrown in a few more, but the end result was: who cares. If I parrot some of the things he says it’s because I decided they were better ideas than my own version of things. 🙂
Most people aren’t aware of this, but the dance industry is very oppressed. There’s a mafia type lockdown on it. Everyone has to conform or they are considered “outcasts” on the competition scene. Artistry, expression, creativity all severely restricted as a result. I’m hoping to liberate some, even if it’s just one I’d be happy 🙂
Only thing I can recommend about this is to record it just as Brian recommends. Only way you document and learn yourself.
Which brings up another point, the volcano dream wasn’t mine, it was my niece’s. I don’t know her dream language. So I probably placed unnecessary stress on myself.
On the other hand, I was thinking about it standing there, and a few syncs. Remembering her dream came while I was sitting here.
All data points though, as Brian says. Me worrying about it wouldn’t change anything if it were to happen.
Hopefully it gets better with age and a few more self reincarnations. At one point I was afraid of skulls, which was the one of the dumbest things that happened. I spent 20 years in a guild called the Undead Lords, where we wrote stories about harvesting skulls, decorated with skulls, collect them… and then I was afraid. Just an instance where I forgot my history in the mix of things.
Coming to terms with that aspect of “seeing” is hard. The volcano prompts scared me. There were so many people visiting the area, animals, birds… Made me sad to think about.
I’ve had the dreams swing both ways, symbolic and literal. A process I haven’t quite learned to differentiate mentally, and for now just relying on how I feel at the time.
Second time it happened was last summer. I was down the shore. The neighbor in the RV next to me had 2 dogs as well. Very nice lady. Her dogs got really sick so she had to take them to vet. I decided to see if they were going to be ok. Did an active imagination session, saw the 2 dogs, one was in black and white. It freaked me out. I was going to run out and get flowers for her for when she got back.
When she did she had both dogs with her. It confused me. She said they had got some sort of parasite and the medicine would fix it, which it did.
However, 2 weeks later, one of the dogs was sick again and couldn’t move. She went back to the vet, and this time he didn’t make it back home.
Thinking about Brian’s spaces chat today. Felt a bit guilty for shutting down last night saying I don’t know how I feel about something. Wasn’t true. It was fear.
Sometimes I have dreams that I don’t want to have. I’ve had two in the last couple of years that didn’t have pleasant endings.
The first was of my previous bf’s father. We were at a bbq at his dad’s house all out on his back patio. Everything was in color except for his father, it was a black and white photo type of image where he was sitting. Like a split screen.
I told my girlfriend about it, and that I didn’t want to the bf to scare him in case I was wrong or they’d think I was off my rocker. I wasn’t though. His dad was diagnosed with cancer that had spread to multiple organs. He passed away last summer.
Dancing in the with the shadows is my gig. Still not sure how this helps my career when I get back to NJ. I keep following leads but they are a bust in terms of career outlook. What’s the tie in?
I’m looking forward to the day where more Goddesses walk amongst us. Men stifling the creative flow cause “reasons”. All of which are lame, of course. Limp, flaccid, you know the drill… or lack thereof.
On that note, baton twirling does take some skill. 🙂
Running into quite a few swinging dicks this week. They want sword fights but I’m delivering flowers and musical notes. No interest in the circular debates. 🙂
Had to do a little bit of shadow boxing on my run this morning. Finished off with a beautiful twist though. One player stepped up to the plate that I could hug 🙂
— Roxanne Ardary 🌺 (@RoxanneA) July 27, 2023
Every single one of those ladies want to look and feel like a million bucks. All Lady Belle’s so to speak. And their partners should look and feel the same.
— Roxanne Ardary 🌺 (@RoxanneA) July 27, 2023
It’s possible they are cutting costs, but not likely. The Ballroom world is known for it’s glitz and glamour. High price tag across the board. Yet the costume creativity isn’t anywhere near what it could be & should be for this venue.
Best of the best line up 2022
The Pro/Am division in ballroom competitions is a Professional Dancer partnering with a student. Kind of like you see on Dancing with the Stars. Costuming has taken a nose dive in quite a few of the events
Pro/Am Champions 2022 pic.twitter.com/E4Skzqre75
— Roxanne Ardary 🌺 (@RoxanneA) July 27, 2023
So far only a handful have followed the trail in the dance group. One in particular is very excited. She’s a dress designer. Hopefully giving her some fresh ideas. Would be very fun to see some of them come to life on the dance floor.
Funny thing happened just a few minutes ago. I opened google maps to plan my route and it opened to the location in my dream where I first met Brian. It was at a Dunkin Donuts, right down the street from my office in Cherry Hill. I haven’t been mapping anything east coast so no reason for it to open there except if I was supposed to talk about this today. He was in a business suit, so I’m guessing the meeting was about real estate? I got a ding for that as I thought it. I don’t know the details of the meeting but I was wondering as I sat there if he could read my mind in person.
I’m not really sure how I feel about this. I’ve had multiple dreams with weather events that happened exactly the way the dream laid them out. So I’m going to bed and going to see what comes to me in the morning.
My niece’s first active imagination dream had a woman coming out of an erupting volcano. There was a ring of smoke around her.
