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Well, captain, there’s a hole in that there theory.
I was thinking about my dream on 6/6/20. The lighthouse would light, the liberty bell would ring, and the smokey spirit went through the town. That’s when I would join the army with the golden angel flying above. Popping out to watch, then rejoining, the out and in and out and in.
The spirit thing is what I was thinking. it was it’s own force of nature. It stirred the people. Since smoke and air is made of molecules, made of atoms, which have electrons. And money is a form of energy exchange. Id say gas is money too.
So, back to farts. They create all kinds of different emotions in people. From laughs to disgust, for shits and giggles. When the spirit moves, you strike.
That’s one way to clear a room and get some privacy! Though admittedly I was pretty upset about it at the time, cause I was not feeling well.
The reason she picked those animals was all cause of self-sufficiency reasons, except the cow. She thinks they’re cute.
So I was thinking today that I really wanted to write a post about how to throw yourself an awesome bday by yourself. But didn’t have a new picture to do it with, and nothing popped that gave me the urge. Been on the fart train all day seems like.
But, a self empowerment how to kinda thing might be helpful. Was just thinking of my cousin, and she called.
I got to talking to her about her birthday and if we could plan a day for her to just go have fun and enjoy herself. She always wants to bring someone, her kids or her mom, and then last minute they cancel. So I told her no, it’s her day to spoil herself and nobody else is invited so nobody can disappoint her.
We picked out a few places. She’s very crafty and loves art. She picked a restaurant that has stone statues. And I sent her a group tour of the art in South Philly. She didn’t want to do it because she was afraid to go there by herself. I showed her the one museum that I just went to a few months ago. I told her it was fine. I drove there, wandered around, and thousands of other people do every day. She wasn’t convinced.
My family tried to scare me out of New Orleans for Martin Gras. I went and felt very safe the whole time, left when I thought the hour was getting close to went it could get shady. Families with kids around are a good indicator that people feel ok and that’s how Marti Gras was the time frame I was there.
Im not sure that my posts of what I’m doing are enough to get the ladies past their fears of trying things alone. Even though I know, and they know deep down, they could have a really good time if they got past their fears. Naviage the waters, find the time frames or zones you feel comfortable with and go from there.
Afraid of shootings? How many people get shot in a drug deal at 10am? Most of the time that stuff happens at night. There are ways to logically work through each concern if they tried.
Im not sure how to convey this in other ways yet, but I did try to find what would excite her. Art, and then went to food and restaurants she wanted to try. She loved the pink flamingo in my pics, also said she wants to make a vision board for life goals, her top was to have a house made of stone or brick on land and have animals. 2 goats, 2 sheep, chickens, a pony and a cow.
Went to the screenshot area to upload it to my private group on FB so I could make a post to you and there were 3!
This was the second one in. But I did not take it at that time I was asleep!!!!
Was on the phone yesterday with my friend Andrea yesterday. She was telling me how the weather up in Philly sucked. I brought up that she and the hubby should take a vacation for a few days and go someplace warm. I brought up a 4 day cruise that I remembered leaving from Philly to Bermuda that I had gone on before. She immediately poo poo’d that idea saying she didn’t like cruises and being confined. (?) Then she said plus covid is running rapid again and she didn’t want to be in close quarters like that with people. She’d rather fly someplace. (Again ?) I just said ok. So why don’t you guys arrange a getaway weekend each month till your honeymoon, which they have scheduled in May. She responded saying how they don’t have the money she’s not working like she used to. (???). They’re combined income is still well into the 6 digits. I’m like, uh I don’t have any income and found a way. She ignored it and just said, just be thankful you’re not here.
Thankful. Was an interesting word, and took me a minute to figure out what I had to be thankful for.
I’m thankful for our combined efforts to retrain my brain to look and experience life differently. You did a lot of the groundwork for me, and I was able to piggy back on that to install a new virus lol. Much love. 🙂
I’m thankful for my mom and her giving me the RV to use. Not sure what life would have looked like without it, but she had my back. Much love there too 🙂
I’m thankful I was selfish. I like that word, when you used it the other day, it stuck with me. I was selfish enough to put my happiness first so I could experience a whole bunch of things.
As for the brain lobotomy part, Im thankful it didn’t work. Or maybe it did in its own way cause I get a lot more interactions now.
A selfish little shellfish.
Hair follicle parasites popped yesterday.
I don’t have crabs, never did.
Had hair lice one or twice as a little kid. Got them in the summer when I went down the shore with my grandma. She said they came from the sand. Everybody needed everything sterilized. That’s all I remember about it.Bunch of covid stuff has been popping in my FB memories from 2 years ago. This video made me laugh.
https://x.com/RoxanneA/status/1743947110657962079?s=20Made my tip of the day post and scored some brownie points!
https://www.facebook.com/roxanne.ardary/posts/pfbid02QYC6ABXStqeJR3ZbFYMYQMrzmFwg6MJPfpMrEc1EVWdFyrWapgcGgEx2fzTnpdxnlSo here’s how this unraveled.
I decided I really liked that msg and wanted to use it in my post without duplicating the full picture, so posted on twit, saved from there. Then decided it was the msg that was important so cropped it. Then wrote my tid-bit about picking out things to do.
Then Maho commented, and I got excited that someone liked it. Yesterday when I was thinking about writing it I did think for a bit, would anybody even care what I have to say? There’s lots of little blurbs I could write to my family and friends and I just don’t do it. I always like to tell you first that’s for sure. But then I stop. Why? I’m guessing timing is everything.
Ready, aim, fire?
Working through my own mind devils as we go. And the brownie was a hit. That’s kind of a fucked up thing that happened at the beginning of this. I never used to care what color my friends were, or who I was chatting with. Then all of a sudden it was hyper-realized. Brownie when a brown guy commented? OMG can I say that? THAT’S RACIST! Color ties became a thing.
Thinking about it as I walked the dogs this morning what I came up with is just the label “black”. Why? Cause my mom wouldn’t be happy. I’ve dated all various skin tones but they weren’t labeled “black”. Though I never dated a really really dark skinned guy, didn’t like my hair jet black either.
My very first boyfriend, was a guy from boarding school. His name was Raphael, but we called him Rap. He looked more Italian than anything, but his dad was white and his mom was black. That was an omg my mom kinda thing. “His Mom, is black?” condescending stare ensues.
The phillipino guy I dated was pretty dark skinned. Mom couldn’t call him black though, but she took issues with something else. His slanty eyes.
Carlos was puerto rican, guess you can say more olive colored skin.
Jay was Indian. Only dated him for a few months. “Sand nigger” just popped in my head, but I never thought of him that way obviously. But it’s a slur I’ve heard from various friends and family.
Maho, never dated, wondered what it would be like briefly way back when. He’s not black though, he’s Jamaican with a pretty cool accent.
So what defines the label black? The people on the TV.
Local news. What everybody watches every day as they have their coffee. It’s what also makes everybody afraid of the cities.
In that regard, I would always try to put politics on in the morning when I was with Flavi. I didn’t want to hear about the 15 murders last night as the start of my day. Or here about the crime sprees taking place. All of which usually focused on black people. Now I’m afraid of black people too.
New Orleans, lots of black people there. Lots of families and friends partying together. Lots of bands and performers in the parades. All having a fabulous time. I walked the streets alone with no issue, talked with different people as I went, taking pictures of the costumes. Had a great time.
Came across 3 black young ladies in costume and I wanted their picture. Lots of hesitancy, then I was told no. Then one let me. Why? White man keeping them down. If you look at the local news and that’s all you see, that’s the case.
Keeping the down is an interesting way of putting it. What defines up? Luxury cars, granite countertops, the “expensive” things in life.
I saw a video of an art gallery Maho posted with some friends right around the time we had a family bbq. In the gallery they were mostly black, or dark skinned, whatever you want to call it. They had music playing and they were dancing. Same as in the streets of New Orleans. Fun and festive. I just sat there thinking how free they are and don’t even realize it.
At that bbq we had a live band. I danced. Was one of the only ones. Got a few people up with me, but I made sure to enjoy myself and the music they played. My family sat around, all debating politics, not moving, talking about how the country has gone to shit. I was unaffected and enjoyed myself.
What defines poverty? When the life and joy is sucked out of you. I don’t blame any one thing in particular. It’s all we experience on the daily from multiple sources.
That’s how the kitchen started on FB. We feed the poor people.
this picture was Also posted 2 years ago with the covid theme.
You know what’s interesting? Andrea’s comments brought back a memory of when I was with Rich. I was talking to her while sitting in my backyard. I had started getting very depressed with life, the grind, the reclusiveness I was experiencing. She used to go to Tony Robbins seminars. I don’t remember the exact words she used but she was telling me about having to want what’s over the fence more than what’s on the side I was sitting on, that’s when I’d make the change. I just remember sitting and staring at the fence for awhile. Thinking of that did remind me of your post in Dec <3. The difference was the wooden one in my townhome was the privacy wall type.
I was also thinking about my mom and my sister. I know she’s there for her too. I just wish their relationship would reflect that. Not in the way it currently is, but where they are happy to be spending time with each other. I’m guessing that unlocks too down the line since Karen saw all 3 of us flying.
Another funny thing, Kingdoms of Camelot was an FB game that I played 15 years ago all during this time frame. Camille is still actively playing her game on her phone. And her and her bf still argue about it.
That’s another thing that’s weird between couples. Camille got very offended one day by something her bf said about one of his X’s. I didn’t understand it, I always had no problem hearing about different previous girlfriends or their sexcapades. I didn’t take it personally like they were better, why would I if he was with me? Obviously all people have their strengths and weaknesses, but it’s not a competition at that point. Now if the bf is sneaking around to see an X they aren’t an X, heh so that’s a different story. But overall, I’ve had pretty open conversations about their previous relationships.
She then brought up that she would never tell him about hers, and how would he feel if she did? That one had me stumped. Cause I’ve never been very open about much of my history. I’d usually answer questions, rarely volunteered it. And when I did, while it seemed ok at the time, quite a few things were used as ammo against me in conversations we had down the line. So I guess I learned to I’d avoid them at times or be honest at others. Talking about abortions backfired, and that was a very painful lesson.
Im remembering the pirate dream I had, the pirate was steering the ship. “The one eyed pirate stealing all the fun” were the words I used. At the time I was thinking about my mom and how we both, my sister and I, viewed our relationship with her. Then the next scene was a gun turning and shooting at me. And I was petrified I was going to commit suicide. I remember going into discord very upset about it and asking others what it meant and that I never had suicidal thoughts. Then they told me it could mean an ego death. That made me feel better and then I was collecting skulls. Just like I did with my gaming guild 🙂
I just remembered Rich saying he wasn’t suicidal repeatedly. Was odd, cause none of his behavior had reflected that. I was worried that he might get aggressive (or maybe it’s defensive?) with my sister when she showed up, so I had her stay away with the kids.
Ok I might be mis-remembering, Im thinking of a screenshot I took the other day to show you. But the middle one I don’t remember ever taking. And the picture order is changed. The last one I took was at the bottom now it’s at the top.
I think this is the one I took this morning. I DON”T KNOW!
But I got enough to buy latte’s, that I do know 😀
So it’s the last day of the bonus month. Was checking out my stats to see how I did. I was excited to see I made enough to buy our latte’s 🙂 Took the screenshot of the top posts.
Alright so not all DMs on FB are legit shit. Some are scams trying to steal the clothes off my back.
Testing picture links in the DM messages
The phone battery running out is why I dropped the iron works. Had to get back, plus it was getting to be the doggies dinner time.
I did put up a few magical pics that made me smile. Had 2 that reversed.
Last year I walked down Duval St. and up Whitehead this year I went up then around and down Whitehead st.
Saw a glass bottom boat I may take a ride on. I asked the lady selling tickets if I could get good pictures. She said yeah. I asked her if they would be as clear as the pictures in her advertising book. She said they’d be good, but not the same as professional quality. Guess I’ll find out what “professional quality” means. The glass panels were clear in the pictures. Gonna see if they clean their shit.
Scratch that, just went through the social media accounts I’m aware of and Michael isn’t posting any of his pictures. I just msg’d him and asked him about his Florida trip, he just went with his dad. Those are memories he’ll want when he’s older and he needs to start.
I know he likes a hands on approach, likes to build things, just like my sister. They built a pretty fencefancy dog house in the back yard together. The pool storage shed too. No memories recorded of their building adventures either.
Was it “just a dog house” or just THEIR dog house.
The reminders bring smiles.
I was thinking about the 50 states adventures lots of the RV peeps talk about. The key memories that trigger remembrance and the butterfly migrations. Also past life experiences and seeing your reflection in everyone if we are all recycled goods.
Every atom a fractal? Billions of past life experiences if all are parts of a whole.
How does the soul / spirit fit in? Are they the same thing? I know it begins in the body with the Big Bang. Is it recycled too or a continuance? How does the soul level up?
I was thinking about it, got a few giggles out of it as I walking. Got a breakfast sandwich which made me think of all the times I ate out. I did that the most with Flavi. He also farted kind of loudly and obnoxiously. I also had the worst smelling farts in my entire life after dinner just about every time we did. Id get super gassy. Try to quietly pass it, but it let off this god awful smell. So no secrets hidden there. It is one of the things we fought about after the fall. Finally asked him to stop being a pig and so obnoxious about it.
Rich was the complete opposite, he would get offended. Hid it himself, and would get angry if even a hint of it could heard or smelled. I always tried to be considerate, no matter who I was with (almost). I have no problem saying I’m feeling gassy, going into the other room, keep it quiet. One time though, he was upstairs and I was downstairs in the living room. I was very gassy, we had eaten Chinese food. I thought I was safe and could let it pass. NOPE! He decided to come downstairs for a drink and the whole room stank. He started hollering about how disgusting I was and stormed upstairs. I mean, if I tell you I’m gassy I should be able to have some location in the house to be able to let it go and just get past it. Having to sit in a bathroom for an hour and just wait and hope it all comes out isn’t fair. And it’s not like when you open the door the smell doesn’t come out anyway.
RVers were talking about that too the other day. It’s life, you deal.
Sometimes I do think it’s funny though. My mom and sister both act like they never ever fart. So sometimes I deliberately fart when Im with them so they can hear it. My mom gives her “that’s gross face” and sister makes a comment. I just laugh. I do get a giggle out of giving sis sneak attacks in the car.
But, I can’t say they all smell cause they don’t. I don’t even know why some do and some don’t. I ate out yesterday and had pretty much nothing. That’s the way it was most of my cross country trip last year too. I did notice while I was at my sister’s I started getting gassy again. It seemed to go away over my travels to Florida.
I do get that my brains been rewired. And I try to make do when I’m limited. I’m just really happy for Jess and Michael that they have just about their entire lives recorded from the beginning. I found a lot of my history by searching but it took a lot of time to find and remember it all. Their life books are far more accessible than any time in history and that’s pretty cool.
Not sure why we are hung up on farts. I’ve farted a few times in my life. It’s a very rare occurrence. Lately its been almost non-existent. I tracked it yesterday and it was one small bubble throughout the day. Guess it depends on diet.
LADIES DONT FART!
loudly, that is, most of the time anyway.But I do believe in fair trade.
Also a fair warning… you don’t want to engage in a fart war with me. Make no mistake about it, I play to win. Silent, but deadly. You’ll never know it’s coming, until it hits ya, right smack in the kisser.
Then you’ll be screaming. EVAC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He was 6 years old here. On his trip with his dad to the Ukraine to see his grand parents. They send me the fb video from there to wish me a happy birthday
I had fun with that guy. Wonder if the real account owner knows he’s been hacked. Happened to my relative too. Got a message from her asking me if I could list properties for her on Facebook marketplace because she was too busy. She’s in real estate as well. They wanted to pay me 700 a week to post 2-3 properties. A bit silly.
Last year I found the momma and her babies at the restaurant. This year they were end of my route.
My intended places got changed. When I was at the top of the crows nest I saw the aquarium below and decided to go. So took a bunch of time there and pictures. By the time I got finished at the butterfly house my phone was almost dead. So I headed back up to the bus stop which happened to be the same one I went to last year.
There was a subway there on the corner. So I went in and got baked chips and vitamin water. Drank the water but shared the chips with the chickens. Smooshed them in my hand and spread them around so the family could eat some snacks.
There was a rooster there too. I’m assuming he was the dad cause they all travelled together. However, he was a pretty big scaredy cat. He hid behind the mom and babies, didn’t even come out for a picture. Stayed behind the bush and when I moved away he ran out grabbed a snack and ran back in again.
The roster and hen I sat with last year both were super friendly. Came right up to you to get food.
Also got a mojito with lunch, figured I’d have a celebration cocktail. Wasted my money. Drank this much and had to stop. Already could feel the alcohol, and didn’t want to be traveling around impaired.
At lunch today was pretty cool. I got the caprese panini but was wondering if I should try the lobster pizza since it was their signature dish. The couple sitting next to me ordered it. I really wanted to try it so I turned around and told them This may sound weird but can I buy a half a slice from you? I’d like to try the pizza and decide if it’s worth getting it next time. They were super cool about it, told me I didn’t have to pay and just gave me a slice.
I liked my panini better 🙂
They felt awkward when I asked for a picture with them. Then I told them it was my birthday and they were part of my celebrations so they smiled and said ok.
Cheese!
This was the house across from the bus stop. When I first got to there I had an hour to wait. So sat and fed the chickens for awhile then sat on the curb. Was looking at for a good long while. Then I realized the sea horse and the little grinch behind the fence so I took a picture. I only had 3% left on my phone. Bus ran way late too. My bus ticket was on my phone so I was afraid to use up the remaining life and not be able to show my ticket. When the bus finally got there, I pulled up the ticket and got my seat. Then I posted the mama hen, and then this one. Soon as it uploaded my phone died.
Seems like the battery life is shorter than it used to be.
I had a pretty awesome day today. Just finished it twinning in the hot tub 🙂 This lady was there with her daughter and we were both wearing our leopard print. They sold there house last year and are full timing too. They’ve been homeschooling their kids, her son just graduated high school and is only 15. She letting him take most the year off while they are in the Keys now to start up online college in September. Her son and husband went back to Utah to check on the businesses. They own a game store and the dad and 2 kids compete in Pokemon! They travel around to these competitions and things.
Had pretty awesome conversation. Homeschooling, issues with kids today, making memories instead of mountains of junk, all kinds of stuff. She was pretty cool.
Live music at the poolside and bubbly conversations. Great way to finish up my outings for today.
