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Anyway, cool go cart vid.
Did I tell ya I did that every Sunday with my family? We used to have races.
I did it with my friends John and Andrea last summer. Didn’t have a go pro to video it though. But guess what?
I came in first!
14 yr
Chloe did much better last night, and I got some sleep! She only started crying once about 3:30 cause she had to go out, then she slept till 7:30. Only one accident on the carpet yesterday too!
15 yr
I’m not understanding the backlog of posts since page 89. The last post visible is the Mickey Mouse cardboard cutout pic.
I only remember two things from early childhood. I remember singing the Mickey Mouse Club song. It was a TV show I watched on occasion.
Then when I was a little older this was my favorite song. I remember getting off the bus and running in and turning on the stereo to play. Think we might have had it on 8 track cause that’s the stereo I remember.
At the beginning of the awakening process I did have a story flow where a little mouse was running up a tree bringing me flowers. We were both animals in lots of dreams so I thought we were just playing mice games. Then I turned into a cat in the next pic and I thought I would hurt you and it scared me so then I didn’t do the mouse picture again.
I wrote about Mickey on my FB the other day but that came to me in flow, wasn’t from my past experiences but tied into the profile pictures.
11 yr
The two comments:
A friend posted: Forgive me, but now I think she is being a bully.Response: I think that was her point… Now he knows what it feels like to be humiliated in public.
I still don’t get it. Aren’t I in a private area? What’s happening behind the scenes that I don’t know about?
I had a bunch of stuff to stay yesterday. I had a really good day till I took the dogs out. Chloe couldn’t stand. She couldn’t walk, she couldn’t get around her hips just kept collapsing. I tried getting the waste wrap to hold her rear up and nothing was working. I picked her up and brought her back in. She couldn’t get into a position to go to the bathroom she just kept falling down.
I’ve been crying off and on all night. I think it’s time I have to put her to sleep. Im feeling like everything I’m doing is just hurting worse. Her little feet have wounds on them from the shoes. It’s the only thing I found that enabled her to walk and that’s hurting her too.
A video popped from when I was in San Diego and she was still able to run around and go swimming. And I just cried and cried watching it. At first I thought it was just to be mean, and then I thought how happy and alive she was then and how every day now she’s just sad and in pain.
Then I think, if she were in my shoes what would she should do. How does unconditional love act in this situation? She’s stayed by my side through it all. In her sickness and in health. Would she put me to sleep?
There is currently no path forward for me to help her. It just keeps getting worse and she gets sadder as do I. Am I reading into it? I just know how happy and alive she used to be and how she can’t get up to greet me now even when she tries as hard as she can.
11 yrs
I’m not sure what this has to do with Chloe. Maybe she has cancer ? I have no idea.
When office hours open Im going to try to find a mobile vets office. I want to keep her home if at all possible. She hates the vets freaks out as soon as we get close to an office. If I could hold her in my lap while she goes. to sleep that would be ideal. Not sure if its a scenario I can create yet though.
11 yrs
Yesterday after I posted about making the matches for Jess and mentioned the dream is when everything went to shit. I told the dream before. I was in my townhouse in Philly. I was sitting at the top of the steps looking down at two kids playing in the dining room area. The little blonde girl was painting on the wall and the little boy was riding a tricycle.
The kids weren’t born yet so seeing them in the dream was weird because I didn’t recognize them. After they were born I wondered about that dream. Also scared myself thinking something was going to happen to my sister. Thought she might die and that’s why the kids were with me. Then later it turned out I was one of their main babysitters, just not in that house.
That was a sleep dream. It happened just like that. She even started painting when she was around 5. I did similar at the start of my awakening. Another case of double meanings exist?
Then the image that came to my mind was of the pic you posted of her looking down the steps, might have been at a train station. That one hurt, a lot. It was just after I came across the pictures and got to California. Pouring salt in a large gaping wound. That’s when the self hatred for all of this really started to boil up.
To this day I still don’t understand why the avoidance. A cup of coffee and a conversation? Would it have made things better or worse? I know everything happens for a reason, but its definitely challenging for me to go through emotionally.
So Jess sent this to me and asked me what I was doing. I matched it in 3 different places! That was pretty fun. Im kind of eager to tell her a bunch of stuff but she’s not quite receptive to everything yet. Game.Set.Match launched. Who knew it first? I did. I knew her before she was born. Saw her in a dream, Michael too. 😀
I was blocked from posting the rocket match and I don’t know why. Thought I was gonna go see them but they aren’t launching here. The guys I talked to said nothing is on the launch pads that had just gone. Had my heart set on Mexico anyway so it’s ok.
I get bored pretty quick on Twitter if you’re not around. Sometimes I just switch to FB and something comes to me there and so I make some posts. Other times I just find something else to do. Plan another part of the trip, emails, sometimes go back to bed.
This morning the inside of my ear was itchy, so I got a Q-tip. Which reminded me of the Qt post you made yesterday, that I didn’t know what you were talking about so I didn’t respond. If you were asking me why I get them, it’s for my ears and to remove make up with the lotion from under/around my eyes. Been also thinking I need to try using them to clean the ignition cause it’s dusty where the key goes and the rag doesn’t cut it. But I procrastinate about cleaning so that has happened yet. I also need wd40 on my gas tank lock, the lock is sticking.
So I’m working on renting a car. Decided to go with Turo they had car rentals for 36 a day. I want to go to Mexico tomorrow and the best place from all the convos is Progresso. That’s about 40 minutes from here. The bearded guy told me I could drive the RV but I’m not comfortable leaving it in the parking lot with the dogs in it. I want to keep it plugged in so they have air conditioning. I could leave the generator on but I don’t know what the policies are at the border for extended time periods and I also don’t want to upset the dogs by moving them. They get very anxious when it’s drive time. So I plan to rent and go. Also want to get my toe nails done, it’s been awhile.
7 yrs ago
There’s an off leash dog park that was very close to my townshouse where I used to take Chloe. It was huge, and had a creek in it where I’d throw the ball and she’d swim for hours to fetch it and bring it back. She is an amazing dog. New agility, played fetch, swam with me.
I see this videos and pictures of her running and playing and I just get so sad. My girl isn’t feeling well. Yesterday she had multiple times where she just gave up trying to stand. She’s not happy. She’s give me a low growl messing with her feet all the time. It’s not a mean growl, just a I hate this growl. I cry a lot watching her. I try so hard to try to help her and a lot of times I think Im making it worse. The videos I watched said the only thing I could do for it was try to give them some quality of life. I try. She gets some energy and wants to play but falls over. She won’t chase the ball, I guess her legs hurt her to run. I try to just think about something else when I start getting to emotional.
Did get me wondering about old soul vs young soul, not age wise, just experience wise. If the universe is constantly expanding that means that all the so is the aether. I guess it’s not cells but it’s making new stuff, and that new stuff is empty and would have to learn. Maybe making new consciousness’s along the way. One girl I watched said she saw a soul machine in her dream and how they are made. And I’m thinking about my friends comment about her leveling up. If old souls are a thing, she’s been through the dog years quite a few times and learned her lessons. Right from the beginning she was by my side, if I jumped so did she. Anything to make me happy.
My Suki, she’s be a young soul. She’s very willful and does the opposite of what I want half the time. If Im trying to help Chloe stand, she’ll come and bowl us both over. Ask for the ball, she runs away. She’s been through all kinds of classes and but she’s still needs bribes to behave. I think part of that is also cause I don’t spend the time I need to with her. I feel guilty if I leave Chloe behind and when I take Chloe I can’t walk the speed I need to for Suki. We take very slow steps when Chloe is with us. No perk there anymore, she struggling and falling so Im concerned most of our walks.
Anyway, I know I’m going to have to make a decision on Chloe in the not too distant future. Seeing her like this breaks my heart, and having to make that decision will also. She’s been my companion for a long time. If it was an option, I never left home without her.
The other thing I was thinking about was the Great Reshuffle the Infinite Loops guy mentioned awhile ago. If Chloe does reincarnate she’d have a fresh batch of molecules to learn from that were holding all different kinds of knowledge. But if her soul atom wasn’t the same how would there be progress on that level if we learn through experiences and hold on to that knowledge? Wondering if the butterfly migration works for them too. My dogs have left their marks all over the country, Suki might be on the fast track if that’s the case. 😀
My other dog, Pebbles. She was a lot like Chloe. Pretty amazing dog too, just a much smaller version. Smart, new the names of an entire stack of toys. All kinds of tricks. I couldn’t do all the things I do with Chloe though she did learn to swim and how to get out of the pool. She didn’t love it like Chloe does though.
BamBam on the other hand, he was my problem child. I rescued him from a dog store. He was an older pup, close to a year when I got him. Spent the whole first year of his life in one of those little cages. I took him home cause he matched pebbles and I wanted them to have puppies. Which they did, then I got them fixed.
But that cage did a number on BamBam. He learned to sleep where he went to the bathroom. Then did it in the house. I was constantly cleaning up after him. But he would pee in certain areas, then sleep there later. Not normal dog behavior so I knew something went screwy with his cage life for so long. I kept him though through it all. He’s the reason Dave and I fought over the dogs so much, cause Bam would be messing regularly. For a bit I thought it was me, and found a nice older lady who didn’t have a dog that could spend all day with him. She gave him back though. They did a jailbreak at one point and got taken in by people. I found Pebbles by posting signs all over the neighborhood about a lost dog that needed medication. A neighbor of the people who had her called me and said she thinks she saw my dog. They had every intention of keeping her. But the medication line pulled on the neighbor’s heart strings and she helped. I got my little lady back.
Bam was kept for awhile. I was ok with that, cause not only did he mess, but he destroyed the house too with tearing things up. But I still called the pound every other day to check and see if he got brought back in. A month later sure enough he was delivered. I went and got him and brought him back home.
Both of them had kidney failure pretty close together. It was around the time when the dog food was tainted and I did wonder if that’s how it happened. Bam Bam I had to put down first. The Pebbles went through the same thing. I had to have her euthanized on my birthday. I was afraid the same thing was going to happen with Chloe but she made it past.
10 yrs ago
I made a post about genetically engineered food. The right to know act that never got passed into law. Don’t recall the letter, but seems I wrote one or filled out a form about it, which is more likely.
The last few days have indeed been eye opening, answered some questions, but far from all.
What happened? One storm was leveraged against another. Then the tides turned and the strongest survived. That was my heart.
I got angry at all of that being brought back up again. And it did help me feel better knowing or feeling like I was pulling the strings from way back when. Then it kind of sucked too. Realizing parts of my life were being acted out with someone else and through someone else’s eyes. And it’s obviously not the same as the other syncs with randoms I’ve come across. But then I thought both of us have that awareness now, and I realized you’d actually have the bigger challenge moving forward knowing that. I’m already unattached, except to you. However, you would also be the luckier one in that regard, able to find it all in one person then the multiple partners I’ve gone through.
Now the 1 vs 10 is popping.
3 more before I’m complete? Can you help me out a little with this, cause I’d like the 8th to be the final. Cause if I have to change partners 3 more times Im going to have to make a whole new list of things I won’t do so I do go through the pains of separation as it happens.
So the upside to this is now we can freely discuss relationship issues and where they are stemming from. If you have trouble in your marriage then if I give you the run down on what’s going on in my life you might have a better idea of what’s happening or what’s to come. Also, what could be problematic for you, is if my defenses are up, you’ll feel the same and might take it out on her or vice versa.
Now I’m seeing the picture you posted, with she leads him. I’ve seen a couple of those with similar set ups, , and pondering the what if’s. So if you guys have been following me to an extent, what happens when the guy she’s leading pops into the picture? All the pictures only show two people. Only the discarded story of Lilith depicts 3. Who can get Lilly to move her leg? Who’s eve is the one that will do it? Who is mystery man #4?
The Adam that’s out there diddling a bunch of Lillies needs to settle down.
So that’s theory 1, we remain friends and can still work through things together. That will at least give me some sense of closure, even though it wasn’t in the flesh kind of real. Maybe you’ll even get brave enough to have a real voice conversation with me.
Theory 2 – the split already happened. Maybe we synced up back then kind of at or close to the same time. In which case we have a lot of fun coming our way. And that got me thinking, if she played the Lilly part was she into the tantric sex? Did you already learn about it? Cause I was reading those books when I was younger just never got to experiment with it. Would be pretty cool if you could teach me. If you didn’t, that would be awesome too. Cause then we could learn and play together.
And so, that’s how I resolved it in my mind. Id still like to know either way your story and see how it impacted my life. I remember posting a Cotton eye’d Joe video and I’d have been married a long time ago if it weren’t for… ?
I burned the house down on multiple occasions.
