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So both sisters were sneaking into my book! I really never did much snooping on them. But there was one time with Shannon. I had an urge to look for my deep purple nightie and couldn’t find it. It was my favorite one, bit of a satiny texture. It was in the middle of the afternoon and she was getting ready to leave to go home to her mothers. So I decided to check her bags and there it was. So I took it out and hid it but never said a thing. She left and when she came back the next weekend never mentioned it either. She was up to some shady stuff towards the end of us living at the Columbia Ave house. Never understood why. When we got to the farm in Jersey, her time with us dropped way down.
I thought we had a good relationship. Only one time I did anything to her of significance that would have been embarrassing for her at the time. That’s when I took all of her bras, she was pretty well endowed for our age, and strung them up all over the kitchen. Opened the cabinet doors so they were stretched open. Then sent her in.
The rest of the time we got along pretty well, at least IMO. But I do get that her dad left her mom, but even with that she was around from the time were about 7 or 8. My mom and ski didn’t split until 2006.
Unity Consciousness
That’s another thorn in my side. We can flow together for a bit, we can enjoy moments together and apart, but we aren’t robots running the same program. We go back to stardust when we’re dead. Life is for the living to enjoy.
I don’t get the goal for wanting to stay tapped out of all the experiences life has to offer all the time. Up and down the steps back into life and around people. Socializing with people. Having fun with people. We aren’t monks. How are monks making baby monks? Claiming they have the keys to enlightenment. Do most care about that? I sure as shit don’t. I want to enjoy life and have a partner to enjoy life with. I’m still stuck by myself in an RV. Are there any female monks???
The girl I met in Las Vegas, she said that was her goal. To stay in flow all the time. She wanted her boyfriend to want the same thing. But, she also had goals though with fashion technology. That’s the word she used over and over again. She was looking for the man that shares her passion for fashion and could help her bring it to market.
Catchers and receivers. I’m on the inside screaming to get out.
That’s was the last journal entry. I kept it with me to every house I went to but never used it again until the dreams started in 2022. Did use a few other notebooks for other projects but that stayed as it was.
Im glad I kept it. And I’m glad a shared it. I realized going through it there might be a chance you thought I lost it along the way, like I did with Rich. Which I did, but I didn’t.
I also thought about the beginning when I posted the dizzy teletubby. If you understood what I was saying, then you might have panicked as well.
Sometimes I still get too many pops at once, the info builds up, but seems a system shut down works, I just go take a nap. Downside is I forget to post everything that I thought of, but maybe that’s the upside cause with all the stories floating around it might be a garbage in garbage out situation, sorted when I sleep, or rest for a bit.
I get the pattern recognition counter argument that could occur if it was fresh out of the gate, but then I go back to Q’s statement “How many coincidences have to happen before it’s no longer a coincidence?”
The musical rooms were a problem growing up. Whenever they’d get mad at me the would hold my fear of sleeping alone against me. The both wanted their own rooms I think. Shannon was stuck with me for awhile, Camille had her room next door and we had a door that went between us as well as a door to the hallway. Camille’s room always scared me. The dark energy mass that I saw in my head would come out of that room. Sometimes I’d be so afraid I was frozen. Couldn’t move any of my muscles. Woke up a few times like that as well. Sleep paralysis I guess it’s called when it’s in a dream. Except it would happen when I was awake cause I was visualizing it.
We are living in NJ now. Sweetheart was my horse. Not sure why I thought I was training her. She came pretty well rounded, with a barrel racing past.
I don’t have much to say about the other posts I made. Don’t remember much about the days they were discussing. This one is funny, cause everybody was reading my journal I decided to code it, and I dunno what I was even talking about!
Candy is the one I told the story about punching her in the mouth. Ivan is a kid I had a crush on for a little bit.
One last thing before I head to bed, Saree told my sister today that he daughter was having a baby due in May. It’s funny since I had that dream about her pushing a baby carriage, she never mentioned that her daughter was pregnant then though. Camille was wondering why she didn’t tell me.
Jess sent me this tic toc video
https://www.tiktok.com/@matcrackz/video/7334520341244529966
Taste the sweetness, a mother’s milk. The creative side of life It’s called the devils sign exactly because of the inverted explanations people give, fear based instead of love based. The upside down cross. Gold is up, the devil’s sign pointing up, always look up to the heavens and see what your higher self says, your heart is connected to that.
Also reminded me of the poem you wrote. I really liked that poem.
These are the bears that live in the clouds.
Market Survey Says: They don’t want the shit you’re selling.
Or you wouldn’t have been cancelled ages ago.
“They were turned into plush teddy bears and featured in The Care Bears in the Land Without Feelings (1983) and The Care Bears Battle the Freeze Machine (1984) before headlining their own television series called Care Bears from <b>1985 to 1988</b>. ”
In case you missed the memo, cartoon bears got an upgrade in 2002
A happy family, that live in the woods and do down to earth stuff, ya know, like real bears do. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Berenstain_Bears_(2002_TV_series)#1 Bear Show for 20024 Winnie the Poo
https://www.ranker.com/list/best-bear-cartoons/ranker-tvThe name might go both ways, but that’s definitely a male bear.
My left ovary was just hurting. And the question I was thinking was do the minds follow? My sister holds major grudges. A lot in my family due. The movie won’t help retrain the monkey.
Did I mention she had a monkey before? His name was Bobby. She got him from a breeder in Tennessee, it was a spider monkey.
I’ve felt like this repeatedly the last couple years with you. But I’ve stuck by my dreams, even if the only one I’m staying “real” with is telling you my story.
I felt that way when I left Flavi too. Not just cause of the awakening process when I was trying to figure it all out and he kept blowing up on me, but the many times before that he did the same.
All signs are pointing towards the version I thought was, is correct. We all have the same story, just the interpretations along the way are different.
So that brings me to the lines. Versions of the stories that are the paths people are taking. Quite a few of the princess stories are broke cause the frog’s aren’t turning into princes. So they counter and go frog style too. Wars over women, plunder and pillage, same shit different weapons. They all want to find their seers.
Here’s what I don’t get. If everyone has the same story why are we all stuck? Everybody thinks they have balls but when push comes to shove everybody gets cold feet?
I really do wish people were more open with their dreams. My dreams not only were for me but had other couples coming together and saving people that were trapped in a foreign country.
A mass awakening when everyone has seen the same movie? So here we all sit with our thumbs up our asses till enough do and we can all play musical chairs together. Except, in my game, nobody gets eliminated because everybody has the perfect lap made just for them.
I’m feeling a little salty. So now I’m looking at you two. I’m going to roll with the “AI didn’t know what it didn’t know”. But now it does, we all do. So what’s next? Forgiveness all the way around?
Cause there’s a part of me that says because Laura and Camille seem to have pieces that are similar, if Laura is aware of all this then she could help Camille. Then I see the married thing to Brian and I lose my shit.
So then I have to face the very real possibility that some people just won’t care about the stories behind the stories. Maybe the want to stay with their partner. My Aunt Diane has been married for over 40 years, they are not easily walking away from that. Especially not now that he is retired, home with her and they are making plans to travel the US with their summers.
I’d assume their roses would have already accounted for that and have a back up plan in place. The full spectrum of abilities probably wouldn’t even be brought to their attention. It’s already mapped out for them so they could discover some magic but maybe not reach the tickle spot level. Cause if the tickle spot gets activated there’s no going back. If both people were in committed relationships then they could maybe just be a pillar to lean on for each other. Would require both people to be communicating though.
13 yrs ago
Just a happy v day wish
3 yrs
First Valentines Day in the new house. Flavi might have cooked dinner that night, we had stir fry.
4 yrs
We were heading in to Season 52
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6 yrs ago
Went to a Mexican restaurant in Cherry Hill. Weird thing, but they have the tastiest mussels. They are covered in pesto. Wish I remembered while I was back in NJ cause they were some good eatin’!
5 yrs ago
Went to the White Elephant Restaurant in philly
