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11 yr ago
A share from a Fred Astaire Dance Studio page in Upper Montclair
“”Ryan’s Calling. What to do? What to do?….”
11 yrs
Shared from Ballroom Dream Dance Studio
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</span>“Ask not, want not”
This phrase has had a negative connotation in my mind. Having a bit of difficulty remembering why. I think my mom used it as a weapon to quiet us.
“Ask not what you can do for your country but what your country can do for you”
Internalizing this, my country meant my whole package. My body, mind and soul working together. My mind sometimes gets hung up on one specific thing and doesn’t see the possible avenues to get there. Takes me time to let go of the original driving force. Take bitcoin for example. I got hung up on collecting it. Then I stopped myself at 3/4 of a coin, cause I decided if it would skyrocket I’d have plenty and if it crashed I’d be ok. The during the change bitcoin was crashing and I switched my thinking that bitcoin was representative of the gold inside and I laughed at thinking my bitcoin was only going to be worth 60 cents. But as I learned more about how the minds worked I also realized that if everyone used that symbol it would naturally become the universal state of consciousness and that bitcoin would in fact take over. Just like how every other trend happens. If enough people believe it to be true, it will be. The associations connected.
What is the meaning of “you have not because you ask not” in James 4:2?
A lot of discussions of this. Seems it all boils down to pure intentions. Then I guess the next question is How? The dream scenes without alt motives, an open mind opens possibilities to achieving it.
The Dream Scenes – I’ve already dreamed of wearing two lucky charms on my necklace. That happened in what seems to be forever ago. One from me, and one from my better half.
And I say better half, not because he would be better at all things than me but because I can acknowledge there are some things in all areas of life that his strengths would offset my weaknesses. And vice versa. I don’t understand why so few women in general ever acknowledge that. I’m not sure I’ve heard a woman say it. It’s easy just latch onto the “he’s just a dumb guy” motto without realizing we all get stuck in our masculine energy. So we are all dumb guys and/or dickheads at times.
Thinking about my interactions with my sister. Each conversation a new drama, each conversation a new brick in the wall. I try to give her alternate views and the parlor walls come up. She doesn’t want to hear it.
In the beginning of this I spent so much time breaking down the stories I told myself. And cheered myself on when you posted a new lower storied building. It made me really happy when we went from the huge china building down to a two or three story university square, can’t remember exactly now just that I was happy.
The one story that I realized we were killing ourselves with was the story of my step father. When I buried him, he was with my mom, so I ruined my relationship with her too and that became a she chose him over me kinda thing. And the hurt that came with that. I did let that part go though, but the motions stayed walled off. It wasn’t until the last couple of years that I started to re-write all those stories I told myself about her. But the first changed happened when I started to say I love you to her.
We can either bury ourselves with the stories or build ourselves up. But that can happen two ways too, caged in or building a mountainous platform to sit on top of the world.
Lots of times I question why I have to be in a cage within a cage within a cage. I just remind myself Im sending the pdf to the ref and just waiting on Brian to summarize it all. I don’t understand why it takes so long now when everything else is moving so much faster. Are we waiting on scheduled meetings? Also, you are missing out on the stuff I write in my FB groups, or is that the top down approach? I give most the highlights here though anyway.
This made me thing about my engagement & wedding rings. I never liked wearing it much. It was beautiful, custom designed exactly how I wanted it. It also got in the way. Banged into things, got hooked on things, felt uncomfortable if my fingers swelled. Sometimes itched too. I couldn’t just wear the wedding ring either. My idea had it so that the two rings had a little bit of a wave in them so they fit together, the wedding ring along just looked weird.
I gave it back to him when I said I wanted a divorce. My friends all said I should keep it and reset the diamonds and make something else out of it. But, I wanted nothing to do with him.
Decided back then that I never wanted a big ole rock sitting on my finger again. I decided if I did go with diamonds they would be the little ones embedded so it had a smooth surface. I don’t like wearing yellow gold though, so it would be white gold. I still hand a hang up with it on my fingers though.
When I saw a picture of your necklace with charms then I thought that’s the perfect place for a wedding ring. A simple beautiful charm that would be with you, could be close to your heart even, but not uncomfortable on your hands.
I’ve posted that song quite a bit, If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it. It conflicted with how I think of engagement rings though, as they currently stand. A view the majority of them as nothing but expensive flash and trash. Another commercialized ceremony that represents nothing but a very brief moment in time. The girls want something to show off, maybe the guys do too. It’s nothing more status symbol instead of something you treasure because it was created and represented your love together. The insurance industry is a whole other gig on top.
A lucky charm for a lucky girl, and I do feel lucky in a lot of ways. The necklace I got represents my thoughts on most of my life, not just the awakening process though that is what I was hyper focused on at the time. I’m lucky cause I never lost sight of what mattered in relationships. I never let money stand in my way. I’ve always made what I needed with a little left over for savings. I never spent my time chasing dollars. I chased what I dreamed of and the money came.
Johanna and I are very different in that way. I don’t rage out in emotions usually. Im pretty calm most of the time, and just take it all in.
Yesterday I got to chatting with that couple and asked if I could vape in their car. We got onto the smell of the vape and I said it smelled like pretzels. They both laughed at me. She said it smelled like caramel and cotton candy. There was truck ahead of us that had their wheels burning, smoke was coming out. I said are you sure you’re not smelling those burnt tires? Everybody laughed but I still think it does, maybe a sweeter pretzel, but a pretzel.
I’m eating them for breakfast. With spicy brown mustard.
Im not sure what all this means but the girls got the top spot. The ones on the right are both wearing skirts too.
Guys getting stuck on the right? Girls on the left?
Looking up the problem or the solution?
The merge in gold.
Not sure what’s going on with my friend Johanna.
https://www.facebook.com/johanna.reed.56/photos
5 kids, her #7 she’s behind a black guy, almost all her photos are of her kids or her with women. There’s darkness in the background of the picture of her last two children. She’s very neurotic, extremely hyper, constantly concerned with body image and wealth, yells and screams a lot too. Driven to an extreme to find a husband.
This is the one I visited last year. Her 2 youngest largely ignored.
1 yr
Visited the Aviation Museum in the Pan Handle.
I just remembered a dream from last night that woke me up. Sleep paralysis had kicked in.
First part I was sitting across the table looking at Andrew. He was writing something on a white piece of paper. Then he said, Come on Frosty. Im getting hot hot hot hot hot! And he was getting very angry.
Then I was in bed and either he or you were laying on my left side for a bit. Then I was back at my childhood bedroom hearing a noise which I knew as my fan. I was saying, apple get away from the fan, apple don’t touch the fan. That’s when I realized I couldn’t move and I was very afraid.
Then I realized my sister was sleeping on my right side. I struggled and struggled to move my arm to wake her up, it was frozen for a good long time. Then I was finally able to move it and started tapping her to wake her. Was still frightened. That’s when I woke up and realized I was in my own room. Started petting Chloe on my right. The fan wasn’t on the floor, it was on the shelf running like I always have it.
Then I saw this picture, the last tagged on my sister’s profile. That’s me behind her.
Tom is a pretty gentle dude. Loves to cook, garden, got involved with the dog agility with my mom, introduced Jess to art classes, always helps Camille do the cooking and cleaning on the holidays. Used to dance but his aches and pains are getting the best of him.
His wife likes none of that. Not sure what she’s up to now, but the wife was running around on him for years for awhile there. Also said, they haven’t had sex since their son was pretty young. No matter what she’s tried, he’s not interested.
Brian Wells is a name that keeps popping up on my friends lists. He’s an instructor that runs a dance studio in Delaware. When we ran the competitions he was a big supporter and would bring his students. Here’s his profile link, first 10 go dark, American Star Ball goes bright lights. His most recent 4 Carlos is involved in his studio.
In my moms line up she had two American Star Ball pictures then a zoom in the star trophy.
America First Agenda
When America sneezes the rest of the world catches a cold.
Sculpting the hall of presidents.
This was the only picture in the whole museum area that wasn’t lit. We weren’t allowed to get close enough to examine it. It wasn’t stained glass though like the others, at the time I was thinking maybe it was mosaic tiles. It’s the bottom picture on the left side wing.
This couple was who I went with. I had a lot of fun with them. Both very jolly, we laughed a lot. They are Canadians, America’s top hat.
He seems in pretty good shape. She’s struggling with health and mobility issues.
Weird glass to have at the entrance way to the museum. The entire thing is devoted to Christ’s life and in the entrance vestibule where you get your tickets and see the souvenirs, this was prominently displayed. I just learned she was burned at the stake too.
Left wing centerpiece and right wing centerpiece respectively
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I might have mentioned before, this was one of the songs I sang over and over again in the beginning couple months. Sometimes I’d just sit in my car so the sound surrounded my ears.
So I just had a conversation with my sister. She was asking me about her savings. I helped her manage her investments for a long time so she would stop getting ripped off by her investment banker. She wants to buy a house for the kids in a town called Glassboro where the school is located. The address is 22 Williams St. It’s listed with Keller Williams Reality.
She’s worried for jess because she’s going to have to pay close to 20k a year in living expenses. Michael wants to go to the same school as her.
Hurt a little bit when she told me she already went to see it. I could have gotten her an agent then I could have gotten a referral fee if she did buy it. But, it is what it is. My company has a pretty sizable balance I “owe” them for not working lol. Might not have gotten a penny of the referral anyway. Did tell her though that the prices are very high right now.
Anyway, before that I was thinking about the Ming Dynasty.
Was also thinking about seeing if Jess would write a love story for my mom.
Second set of pictures.
At the nun picture I was done going through the place and had walked out to go to the restroom. Then I went back to take pictures of the babies. When I was finished I went shopping. 3 pictures turned on their own, 2 went side ways and one upside down.
Know what was interesting about this place? They were very specific in the order to view the windows. The building was shaped as a cross. This was the long hall. When standing at the entrance of it they wanted you to go up the right side of the hall first and follow the walls that way till you come back down on the left wall. Even though they went through the life of Christ they had child Jesus’ on both walls.
I might have mentioned before, here at the dances almost all of the ladies put on dresses for the dances. I only saw one lady fully naked, a couple that just went topless with skirts.
Guys stayed guys. Just a couple naked, some with shirts on and no pants, most wearing clothes for the dance. It was a social occasion after all.
What’s up doc?
